It feels good writing again...I missed it.
So let's get to business:
While I've been away, I went through a lot. First it was good! Met a boy, fell in love, got engaged...but it wasn't all that it seemed. With lies and deceitfulness, sugar coated with love - it came to a complete halt. We broke up, just about a month ago and I'd be lying if I said it didn't hurt. I cried myself to sleep every night for awhile, but what doesn't kill you makes you stronger - which I'm finding is true.
He took me away from everything that was important to me, I haven't been myself, nor happy for the year we were together. I was extremely discouraged, hate to admit, I still get like that on occasion but I'm healing. It was a weight off my chest to not feel his control, I cried myself with laughter and happiness the first day we broke up, but of course you have the mind vs. heart dilemma - so slowly the sadness crept in.
I'm calling this my genesis because I'm starting all over. I recently deactivated my facebook account (which is a big deal to me!) and going in to a kind of silence, save for my family, my blog, and God. I'm taking this time to humble myself and focus on HaShem. Hopefully get back on my feet and on the right path.
So expect more blog posts and hopefully the old me back.
1 By David: Bless ADONAI, my soul! Everything in me, bless his holy name! 2 Bless ADONAI, my soul, and forget none of his benefits! 3 He forgives all your offenses, he heals all your diseases, 4 he redeems your life from the pit, he surrounds you with grace and compassion, 5 he contents you with good as long as you live, so that your youth is renewed like an eagle's.
